Do you know friends!!! What is my problem?
Although I have reached to the stage of youth from early stage of adolescence, but without crossing the intermediate stage of 'maturity'.Perhaps my mom nurtured me only with COMPLAN(6 feet +) instead of proper IODINE salt(a slow learner).Asking right question to ownself can be terribly important in most of the situations.Especially, when people escape just by saying, they are answerable to themselves only.
Anyway,My emotion aroused again(I can't help it), as the day has come for which I have waited so long,more than anyone else possibly would have.But when the day is at my door step, I am unable to move my feet.I know she won't listen me today & I don't want to,But only 'ONE' can listen me today & he have to.
If love is just a part of life, I call some part of this life being STUPID:)It would be completely improper to say anything without an example.You might have remembered the previous release of DEEPIKA ( always my prime concern ).But my mouth remained open,the girl had brought myself on my feet,who was that girl?..........HERLIN KAUR .Each & Everyone was appreciating LOVE-KAL.The way a 'DIE-HARED LOVER' had given all his efforts to keep himself all-around her.Moreover her unpredictable move by switching her position in a moving train.No exchange of words,but complete exchange of heart.But what about LOVE -AAJ? Friends!!!DO we have any other choice after that typical Indian love story? After all,we prefer "relationship" over "works & ideal" while watching NICE-ROMANTIC MOVIES.....isn't it?Finally Bollywood manage to continue its legacy(paisa-wasool).Now I am giving here some TWIST because it is imperative to reveal my stupidity followed by her maturity,before your final VERDICT.
A practical wise:
Why did you come for? Do you want to remind me anything? There is no match between me & you. After that too,I had told you.......Oh!!!! This is your PROBLEM ,once I have talked to you in a friendly manner you are just trying to figure out something.That is not what are you here for?
& Compliments ??? Can you even talk to me in my language properly? & perhaps You have assumed, as I am soft hearted,kind & generous so that anything you offer me I would accept necessarily,again & again....?
& as far as love & affection is concerned.......
Of course, I love you but I love pets also.In fact, I love every living thing.What does it mean? & one more thing......I can't stand with your please look too longer .It's like hindrance for my ever smiling face.so please...
How lucky for me if I could have listen 'this' words from her,in her soft voice.she kept everything unstated...,But when I looked straight into her deep eyes(they never betray) her words were loud & clear.
An emotional Fool:
Again there is no reason but there is an Occasion.My friends tells me that there celebration reduced to half if they don't wish there beloved ones.But GOD knows I haven't celebrated even a single festival without your compliments.I admire your self-control but I don't have half of that & perhaps it is constant presence of your beauty which dragged me here once again.so if it is possible for you please......& one more thing, no doubt I am down with your fever from the very first day I saw you.But yesterday when I saw you in 'salwar-kamiz' & in loose hair,I get totally flat.Do you have any idea that you can look more beautiful,once you want to!!!!
How lucky for me if I could have told this words to her in my stammering voice .& after that incidence my eyes are no longer expressive for her.
Now tell me friends;Which side your personality would have dominated on that day?I apologizes not to behave as properly as I should have & as she likes.But was it really difficult to accept one's compliments? & friends ....am I just a puppet in her hands ? Does my happiness only depends upon her mood?
But your silence is like an order to me. I know your verdict.& after killing almost one year(either standing still or moving aimlessly.....),I myself felt that My "unnecessary emotion & senseless sentiments" have spoiled my career as well as & my relationship .Thank U IMTIYAZ , as of now I have chosen LOVE AAJ.& thank U Mr.perfect!!!you never ever reacted on me like everyone else did everyday.(What are you doing pankaj.....?be practical & quit.)Yup,Time has really come to quit.Not because I am tired or harassed,just because I realized it completely that I need a social landscape (not this INTERNET) where I can put my heart in front of her without your advice or interference.& listen it carefully, once & for all.......that I can't get practical for her.This is exactly my PROBLEM.I can't behave as a hypocrite with whom I am deeply affectionate.I haven't learn to live up with dual character with my beloved ones'.(sab kuch sikha maine na sikhi hossiyari......) & I can't any decision of my life just on 50-50.I always have to give all my efforts, more than my 200%.& thereafter also, I leave the 'choose' option for others to think ....to decide(Because beggars can't be choosers).This is what I am.& I am not going to change for anyone (either after next couple of years or the rest of my life..)because these words are not only the words of an emotional fool.These are the word of a responsible son ,caring brother ,good friend...& I am answerable to all of them & I will have to.
so Friends; just pray for the happieeeees ending, because I am praying already everyday,every time,every moment.& I'll pray for my entire life & in all lives.Can't U listen.....?
but HE have to listen.GOD!!!! bless her,make her always happy.
Look!!!! Even toaday I haven't given anything except my true blessings.Because you deserve more what I can offer you today.The only compliment to your beauty is WISDOM, no flowers ,no cards,nothing...which are mortal.& yes,In general I have seen so many boys,but if I have ever wish to admire some rare human qualities like...SELF -SUFFICIENT,SELF -ESTEEMED,SELF-DEPENDENT & SELF-CONTROLLED, at its best-that makes someone PERFECT-you are of that kind...which is quite rare.Don't U think Exactly after one year, I have known you by my own, without anyone's help ????
But Ms Perfect it's my little urge.......that If someone deserve your acquaintance, your company, no 'virtue' in giving your laughter(LOL).It is by default.'Virtue' is the thing to give your defeating smile to us, to strangers,to undeserved.So stay smiling & for everyone, as you always.... :) & If you would ever believe in "LOVE"(possibly not yet..); Strange are the ways of love ,so strangers should be given priority.
& At last I just want to say...not easy for me to accept it publicly & that -too at the first time in my life,But now I am mature enough to accept....Yesterday I was in 'LOVE KAL' with YOU,Today I am in 'LOVE AAJ' with YOU & tomorrow I will do 'LOVE HAMESHA.....' with you & I really have to wait for tomorrow because my destiny is 'LOVE hamesha....' with you not limited to 'love aaj-kal' only.& you might have observed that I never did anything which I wish to hide from YOU & from anyone,because desire to hide means I am afraid.(pyar kiya to darna kya.....?)so let me see!!!how much time would I take to say this vocally, personally & that too in your language.
& Now ,Enough for the relationship...But remember,it was just my proper way of madness,picture to abhi baki hai...........
Hai Dhokha toh khale,kabhi to aajmale....
jo maine tha kahna,kah diya bus that's it.
Love mera hit-hit.........
