my moon eclipsed.......

Sometimes in your life,when life offers you a dream beyond any of your expectation..,your imagination; it isn't resonable to grieve when it comes to an end.SHE came.........but did she really come for me ?

Waiting for someone,when you are not sure whether she would come or not,racing for something infinitly more precious, when you are a great loser.....but it was not important that she would come late ,for me it was important that she would come & she came.......in her typical & my favorite look.There was immoblie approval in her eyes,her legs were moving slower & slower as if it was difficult to find her way in twilight condition.For a moment, I was in seventh heaven....Oh GOD.... don't let me down!!!! but........
Once again I was deceived...my wishes remained silent...my presence remained unrecognized .she was leaving for an uncertain vacation & I was unable to listen her voice ....her soft & gentle pitch voice.my friend asked "Are you OK dear".........? "YES" I lied.It is only known to me how I had stopped myself without crying, my heart was about to burst, but I have said it earlier that I would never ever try to hamper her privacy,maintain the public decency & decorum for her,So 'I AM SORRY .sorry for being "DUMB" again.

I was in my way to find your new definition apart from this callous crowd(PURI-an ideal place for introvert holiday maker).One of my friend said" pankaj ....had she been here ,along with you ...?They are such fools,don't they know ......your laughter is more audible than the high tide of the aquamarine ocean,your white skin is more pure than the brightness of the shiny pearls spreading near sea,pride of your beauty is much higher than the courage of lions walking second next to our vehicle.( in NANDANKANAN), your self control is more firm than the rigid walls of KONARK temple & if I close my eyes more than the normal blinking time, your appearance becomes more visible than statue of Lord Jagannath(Trust of millions).you are always along with me.But if it is possible for you,please come soon because it is not possible for me to close my eyes entire holiday........

chand ko kya maalom chahata hai use koi chakor.......

wo bechara door se dhekhe ...Bina machye shoor.........!!!!!!!

Waiting........is it only long to me ?

Writing anything to anyone always said to be unconditional & one sided affair & perhaps Internet is the most appropriate way to show my affection & that too "PUBLICLY" .But No one could ever feel how "LONELY" I feel about you.(I am hoping ...you will).Whatever I have written till now....are humorous ,affectionate, discursive, but not the way a lover usually writes .........But today I want some liberty & even the high walls of your "GH" not going to stop me today, to give you my compliments.

One can travel whole world & see nothing.....But today traveling 5 minutes with you ... I got everything.Your presence always makes me believe that, there really exist a GOD somewhere, in whom I ever had hardly believed.I realized worship & trust are inseparable & perhaps It is enlightenment of your oriental eyes ......... still persisting in my eyes & I am not going to sleep tonight.(By the way I am still not prepared for my tomorrow's Engg. paper). You are not ready to give up your WHY,I am looking for my HOW, because I have learned how to live up with your aspiration...your dreams.your instinct are stronger than any reason to 'talk with you',but few things are said .....without being told.It was again difficult to show ice-cool temperament under nerve wreaking situation....when I saw you.How could anyone laugh with such an apparent ease...How could anyone offer joy & happiness without asking any debt........?I am not sure what are You doing .........but one thing is for certain you have done your job today & do what you feel like doing !!!!!


"jaane se pahle ek bar milna to jarori hota hai"........